It is weird how I have been so busy over the past weeks, tired from travelling and from work. My job used to bring me all the way from morning waking up at 6am to arriving at home at 7pm, that often when I came back with a couple of hours free, it would all end up so quickly finished. Even the weekends, I would be so occupied that I wouldn't be able to find any time during the weekends for myself.
But last friday was the last day of work. Came the weekends, and I realise that I had nothing to look forward to all of a sudden.
No more work concerns, no more "I have to sleep early tonight or else I will screw myself up tomorrow at work" etc.
All of a sudden, as was the whole of today, I felt like an empty shell, devoid of life and existance.
Trying to fill up that void made me very frustrated today. I didn't feel like going out, nor did I feel like doing anything else but to stay at home. I felt very withdrawn.
For the first time in a very long time, I felt vulnerable, inconfident, and afraid of interacting with other people around me.
4 days left.
